Today I feel the need to write. But I'm also afraid of writing what I'm feeling. I'm sorry, but I must be cryptic because this is not exactly my story.
It's been a rough day for me. I received some news that stings an all to familiar sting, and yet I'm calm. When news like this came around the first time, I panicked and immediately went into denial. Now that the similar news is here again, I'm not so naive. So as I'm trying to figure out how to navigate the next two weeks the title of this blog's song pops into my head, and I think for just a moment what it would be like to slip into another world and not experience what is happening right now. I can imagine myself lying on the floor, experiencing life in a deliriously happy slow motion while everyone else runs around in chaos behind me. Myself being completely oblivious to the truth and pleasantly distracted by the simple topography of my living room rug. Alas, I cannot.
Even though I feel completely drained from the day's news, I find myself at peace. Not a happy peace, but more a "God knows what he's doing so relax" peace. I can't even get mad yet.
I don't have an ending to this blog. Like I said I just needed to write. . . .
I guess I ask you this question, How do you cope with something you don't want to face but know deep down you can't avoid?
